Frozen Tears Pt. I

As I lay here, out in the heartless, frozen world,
I think of all the pain I have caused. 
Not just to myself, but to others also. 
I want to right my wrongs,
But I have no idea how to. 

As I lay here, out in the frozen, heartless world,
I think of all the pain you have caused me.
And how it tore me to pieces,
Even years after the fact. 
I want the pain to end,
But I don't know if it ever will.

As you lay next to me in this world,
I wonder about what you're thinking. 
If you are thinking about the pain you caused, if any,
Or about the terror you are caused to hold inside,
Terror of what this world is coming to,
Terror of what will happen when you get home. 

As we lay there, in the frozen world,
Tears stream down our faces, 
Unheard sobs rack our bodies,
And then, in the frigid air,
These tears freeze on our cheeks, 
In our noses, and mouths,
Making it more difficult to breathe than ever.
More difficult than when our father beat us,
More difficult than when we are running away,
Running away from everything we have known. 

With these frozen tears, suffocating us,
We lay there, afraid,
Afraid of ourselves and the world around us.